Did not know why, tonight I felt so strange of my self. Not only to myself personally, but also with many people. Moreover I felt strange was in the friend's wedding reception. Not many that could be discussed by me. Because useless then. I thought I have found saturation point in my life now. Because I also did not know where the true direction. Frustrated. I could not still be patient to myself. I hated myself tonight. I was confused if personally. But I could not also breathe if so many people. I only wanted to sleep in the embrace someone tonight. That could for me comfortable gained the dream and strong when I was awakened.